Little TalK

Hi everyone 

u see when i was small like around 12 or 13 i begin to watch anime , and with time i become addicted to them , and i was afraid at that time if i grow up and i get married , and have childern , i was afriad i'll stay the same girl who watch anime , but at the age of 15 , i get less in watching anime , and got into manga , and by time here i'm 17 still watching anime and reading manga , but still i'm not into just this two , i also adore watching korean drama , and so as japanias , i now can talk a bit of japanais , and i was proud of the that , untill i got into high school last year , and since it's a new class , it's also a new friends , so i was sitting behind , and so i don't remember exacly what happend , but someone from the front give me something so i said arigatoo , and then this girl who was sitting beside me said something in japanais , i don't remember what's it ! , but well since that we become close friends , more then friends , we become sisters , kind of , hhhheheh , so i really love this friend of mine , she have white skin and she's short , she's like 1.55 , while i'm brunnet , and tall , i'm 1.75 mmm well still i love my hight :) . hight doesn't matter in making friends , well ofcourse u'll have difficltty in talking while standing up , but what the heck ? i don't give a damn ^^ i'm happy with the way i was born , and i thank allah for that :)))))
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letting go !

i'm not going to fallow you , or tell you that i love you in my own way , i'm not going to stand from a far , and  watch you with my eyes whish are dying to see you from up close ; i'm not going to climb there anymore , i'm not going to entre you're classroom , and keep looking around , as if i'm saying" i wish i can be here with you" , i'm not going to wait untill it's 10.00 to see you , and run as fast as i can just to see you're face , and  when i see you i'll hide somewhere , and begin to feel like a stalker , my legs tremble , my body is at lose , and i froget how to walk , all this is not gonna happen anymore , i'm  going to froget you , i'm not gonna ask for you , i'm going to let go , you're free to fallow you're charming girl , she's nice , well to nice , you're nice as well , i guess you too fit toghther perfectlly , when you two were toghther i wished a bad wish , it's not like a wish , it's more like a hope , i said if you two broke up , then it mean you and me were meant to be toghther , and then my wish become true , but i know it was just a false hope , cause you're cool , but somehow silent , and you like dark song , when in the other side i'm more like wowo who live in lala land , well now you're wishing to go somewhere else , and maybe take you're ex with you , getting married , having kids , at that time my secret of loving you will be frogtten , and drowned somewhere ,  i wonder if when i see you again i can be brave and look t you , and feel sorry for myself or feeling ugly thought i'm not , i'm afraid that eyes of you'rs will show a very ugly side of me ,  well now i have frogtten u dear ex-love , i wish next year i'll find someone else , someone charming , and very cute ,  handsome , i don't want to fall in love with someone like you  , not anymore .

heart

When you want something so bad , but that thing can't be you'rs no mare what , it make you feel usless , and unwanted , hurt , invisible , edgy , poor , lonely , frogtten , hated , wrong , pitful , gross , disgusting , Ugly .

revenge or hate , does it help us ?

Well , befor this momment here , i hated someone very much , she hurted someone precious to me , i really hated her , she wasn't the type that regret what she did !, or anything ... , she play it nice , and cool , but in realty she's a really a nasty , like to insult u , but with this kind of thing like not direct , but u understand that it was about u , well i felt really that i need to hate her , she's just have to be hated , i always thought , how can her familly stand her , she's defentally is a bitch . 
    
    But , now that i've met her again , I saw her , and looked again ,and again ,and again , she's getting old , her skin if pale , her face seemed ugly , i pitted her , i felt sorry for her , she's not that one i hate , i thought is this her ? the way she dress , everything , ...my life is better then her , i'm happy , she's aweful , i'm restful , she's restless , as she spoke and all , the urage of hating her begine to slowly dispear , does she deserve me to hate her ? , well guess what , she deserve it , but i don't want to waste my time on filthy people like her , i hate her , and i still , but i don't care about getting a revenge or trying to make her regret it , cause she won't , she'll never forget it , she'll keep her life , and she'll repeat it again , and again , and i'll never care again .


 this familly from the mother to the daughter , they're all enjoy making stories , it's like there's not anything else important , well let them both go and throw them self from a roof , lol , just kidding ,but i really don't care , they're idiot , and the idiot who will care . 

but how can't somebody get hurt from they're words , it's stabbing us in the heart , but yes we recover , yet we want to repay them , sometimes we repay them , sometimes we don't , cause it's better to give them the cold shoulder ,rather then the spilling water , that's what i think sometimes not all the time .

We can't live happily after a stab in the heart , and we wish we would comeback to redo what we said , or to even say something or just do anything but it's a shame that we can't "it's life.
 they're indeed IDIOT , and i'm going to protect that precious person of mine , and that will be next time dear idiot .