Love !

my cousine is gonna get married , she's gonna make her dream finally come true , i bet she's so happy she barely can sleep , afraid she'll end up just awake from her dream , a year ago she wasn't even dreaming that she could make someone knock thier damn door asking for her hand , and now here she's about to get married , the botton which pushed her to end up like this , was one and only reason , my sister getting engaged , and what a reason , from a familly like heres , full of jeallosy of us , so after god know how many months , she got engaged as well , feeling so proud to be in that place , everyone  said she's so stupid , people get proud over having a job , having to finish thier studies , doing something amazing for them selves,  and her over getting a man , i think she have the right to be happy and proud , because it's such a good feeling to be wanted from another person , who loves you , wanna be with you forever , when people says that she's so stupid and rather naive , deep in me , i'll be saying if you only know what i also want , so i think she should surly be happy and proud , but it also depends on how she got this man , got it based on the reason said before , or out of love , because if it isn't of love and acceptance , i'll tell you , what a naive girl indeed , to chose someone based on others , based on her getting older ....
Yes , i know how lonely it must be , staying with no love and  all that shit , i'm in a young age , yet i'm obessed with that kind of feeling , there's nothing i hope and wish for much for then bieng wanted from a man , what a feeling , everyone making me feel really jealouse , i want to experience it soon ...

Stand up for yourself !

Messed up ...
stomack always hurt from over thinking of stuff that are less important ...
Tears always fall over stupid persons that don't even blong in my circle ...
Mouth always forget how to move when i'm infront of people who doesn't seem to accapte me ...
legs always lose thier track ... hands forget thier orginal perfect position ...
Messed up ...
I'm done with this kind of feelings that are invading my soul ... making me lose it each day ...
I want scream out loud ... without carring about people looking at me ... without carring if thier hurt by my words ... my mouth want to express ... want to shout out loud saying I'm here , i'm powerful ... i know a lot of stuff that u may never imagine existing ... i'm unique and sepcail as anyone out there standing up high ... talking whatever they want ... not thinking if his mama gonna punish him later over it ...
Messed up ...
everyone is a big part in what i've become today ...the past made me ... all the laughs over me ... how ugly i was ... how messed up  my hair was ... how lonely i've felt ... how many words destory little me ... how much hate did i get from doing nothing ... how cruel thier looks were ... all the words , all the mean , cruel and deadful words that used to break me ... i wasn't the perfect beautiful girl ... with the most gorgeous cloths , no i wasn't ... nowdays i've become beautiful for them ... someone who they get so jealous of ... yet i still can't express my self perfectly ... that stupid mouth .... shy smile ... dry eyes ... like i'm pushing myself way too much ... my heart thumps up saying stop all this boring style of yours ... express your self ... be the girl you are always ... the mean ... the cold ....the hurtful ... the killing smile ... be all this ... be who you are truly ... kill them with your words ... kill them all !!!

The circle ...

i've always wanted to be a part of thier circle ...
they never dared to invite me ...
i've went there sevral times as i was young , lost in the lust of thier home ...
Felt like i needed to be a part of them ... yet they never dared to invite me ...
Still even now ... wishing to be like the others ... be part of something ...
When they talk about them i feel like i'm about to cry ... the tears are in the edge of falling ...
Questions keeps floating in my mind ... what did i do to be treated this way ? ...how come they don't love me ? ... i've chosen the best words to describe my passion to be a part of them ... yet thier looks shows less accaptence then anyone deserve ... i've grow up to hate them ... really hate them ... because they didn't accapte me ... they didn't do anything to win my heart ... i was jealouse in all the way ... no one understand what feelings i had when i went there ... it felt like they were living in heavan ... and now i see that as a disguesting place ... shame to be called heavan , rather a HELL!!!
They enjoy us falling ... they enjoy us get hurt ... they Don't care about us ... and Yes , I hate them ... for everything they've done for me and my familly ... how can they be so mean ... and cruel ... we are humans just like them ... yet they're so cold blooded then anyone i've ever seen ...
I'll do anything to see them falling ... to see thier castle get destroyed in front of my eyes ... i wish every shity shit they've done to me and my familly gets back at them ...
We're all at the same level , yet they got the princess treatemnt ... and i'm the guest ... always the guest ... always the same annoying questions ... i don't want to be rude , my Mama doesn't like it ... so i control my self as i could to not let my mouth slip for me ... because i may say it all !!! , Say how much i hate them ... how much i hate  the kind of disguesting air waiting for me to go ... all thier jealousy of us ... afterall we have what they don't ... they're so pushing to know everything and try thier best to rise much higher ... but they'll never pass us ... cause they're not like us ...
we got our own circle now ... and they never be part of it ...

FRIENDZONED !

Today , i've enter the friendzone , Indeed ! , in a way it's a good thing , but i still want more , i guess it can't happen from the first moment we met right ? " AMI " haha wierd !
i was kind so sad when i saw it , it was like saying ur a good friend but we will never be more kind of thing  , maybe that's a really good thing, at least i have a conction to him somhow , yea ...
but what should i do to improve my love life , if it could be named that way  !
he may already have a girlfriend , and he may not even like me , though i'm very pretty in my opinion and so for others  !
how can one person make me so happy with just one word " imagine if i'm reading this after years , i'll be like , what an idiot i was , sepcaily if HE ain't in my life NO MORE " i hate to think of it that way , but i guess everything has an end , and i just would like to say what a great feeling u've made me go through waiting for u to replay , and than when u replay i'll go like crazy , smiling by myslef , thinking i should come up with something Quite never been said , that should make me out of the ordinary ! , i'm  crazy , i make so much efforts for people to like me , when maybe i shouldn't right ? , and then there's this rules that i have to stick with , like not sending too much msgs , and not bieng the one who talk first , and get away for few days to give him time to think of u , and so as for when u replay ! replay with something CRAZY ! , but all i'm doing is letting things seem quite normal , and as if he talking to a cousin , or something , sending him some videos , which maybe suck !!! hahaha
anyway the thing is , i'm scared if this gonna end , when it just started , and things gonna get borring , because we ain't talking face to face , and the converstation gonna get dull , and so short later !
I WISH IT WON'T !
salam 

Untill when !

Hello guys 
it's been such a long time , i know right !! but who am i talking to exacly , no one seem to read my blog anyway ? 
Today i'm gonna talk about not belonging to anyplace and to anyone , they're all a  bunch of idiots , where am i gonna ever find someone to love me everyday , appraicte that i'm near him , and understand what i'm trying to say , those idiots i had enuagh of them ..... 
untill when am i gonna end up like this , not understood , and always judged by the least i do as something wrong , they raise u and then descripe u in the worst words possible , untill when !!! , i hate it so much , i would never do any of this to any of my childern , if i've never had some haha ..
Jumbing to other question , If someone if poor willing to marry u , though ur rich " meduim " , why won't familly accepte him ? " they think they have the last word " ... 
if anyone is reading this , please let me know the answer ... 
thanks <3

problems

no one understand
no one understand what i'm trying to say , express , tell or  show , they don't understand , but that show thier true feeling , just bitches , no one care about us , the only one who do is us , bieng alone is aweful but more peaceful then staying with a bunch of stupide people like them who don't understand you at all ,

i can't wear cute clothes or new clothes when i go out because i feel like a whore as a first reason , second reason i feel as if i'm a whore lol , 3rd reason would be because i don't like the look of my father , as if i'm a whore , and i know it's just my imagination , and yea i know i'm complex , but what should i do , i was born like this ! .

I'm beautiful , i know that , everyone tell me that , but i think that i'm the most ugly person in the world , and i'll never be loved niether from my look or personality , i'm ashamed of myself , i can't talk with boys or look them in the eyes , and that all my father faulte and mine because i'm too shy !

NO one understand me , i live in my home , always there , all year there , nothing change , same routine , same place , same stories and talks keep reapting all days long , fighting for the miss-understanding  , no respect , no love , nothing at all , the only thing is cooking and eating , i had enuagh of cooking and eating , isn't there anything more then just Swallowing what they find , am i one of them as well ? maybe .

Some stuff is okey for his familly and not for us , " he love them more then us ? " sister said , i said " why are you asking , that was ovious from the start " yea he do , everything is okey for them , if they come and yell and laugh it's okey , if they eat everything it's okey , if they joke with him and send him shameless picture , and respond to him with unpolite talk  , it's gonna still be okay , but us one word , one joke and boom " i'll come and break your head " , what kind of  action is that  , i love him but i hate his manners , it's okey for them and not for us  , he's gonna say " they are not my childern " , i'll say ' nah , that ain't the problem , if you have a principle do it on everyone , not some people treat them as if they were kings , and your childern as dirty servent , nah that ain't nice , that's just painful to watch " , all i like about a man is his principles , if he stuck up to them with everyone , then he is the real man , for me !

i hate my aunts and oncles from both side " mother and father " , they're mean ,

boring-rotine

Hi
today is the " one month" since i took vaccation , and enter this boring-rotine daily life .
my routine is  :
1)- wake up so late in the morning "the last one awake" ; wash out .
2)- after that i re-order the beds .
3)- pray .
4)- do nothing !
5)- then i got to sit on " laptop " , check things out  read manga or read anything .
6)- eat lunch and pray after it " depends on the hour i woke up at it "
7)- the whole evening at my sister bed using laptop
8)- when my father comes i get up and walk around .
9)- then i check my laptop and walk around every 5min .
10)- eat dinner , go sleep in my bed untill late while reading manga or watching movies , then sleep .
this is my routine for the past month , i know quite boring !! , and plus i don't help my mama at anything at home , i'm really ashamed with myself but what can i do ? , i'm getting more and more lazy ; pfff this is getting on my nerves , i wake up tired , and i sleep tired , i live my life tiredly " i don't know if this is a word lol ''
today i'm gonna try to change , and that's it .
salam <3 peace 

كم اشعر بالخجل .. !!!

What i should do about this ? i'm feeling really loose , i can't seem to work it out at all , i'm feeling really really lose , what should i do , this is really making my heart dieing inside , i can't seem to make this trobling feeling go away , it's just killing me ? ! , i'm feeling under Down , i'm feeling like " am i really this stupide and why ? " i feel like i'm broken more then ever , she had the best notes , and here i'm playing around , not even studying serieusly !!! , why am i like this ? why don't i have a dream ? why can't get better , why am i this stupide ... 
i bet there's a lot of reason's why : 
i hung out with stupide people 
i don't study at home niether do i try to understand at class 
i feel shy , and i can't seem to talk much at class during the lesson 
i help people , but they get better note then me , that's really just sad !! 
i promised my mother that i'll get a good note so i have to get a better note in the seconed tremester , that's really my goal for the new year 2014 here i come ... !!! 
تظاهر بأنك (بخير دائماً ) ..مهما عصفت بك الحياة، (فالكتمان) أجمل بكثير من "شفقة " الآخرين عليك .

نصيحة مجربة 

  

ME

me : 

- i'm a girl .

- i'm a teen in the age of 17 .

- i don't like flashy stuff .

- i don't like getting a lot of attention it make me blush , and doesn't know where to put my hands , or how to walk , or how o even smile .

- i love reading manga , i wish i'll have a love just like shouju ^o^

- i hate babies , not hate , but not a big fan of them . 

- i love the number 18 and 19 even 17 they kill me . 

- i hate the sport teacher . 

- i hate people who like to make fun of me , bacause i always look calm , like they can do wherever they want and say wherever they want , basterds !.

- i hate guys who run after beauty flashy queen , and hey beg them for a attention , they're an ass !

- i don't trust girls niether boys , not anymore , i shall get back to my habit ,whish is depending on myself all the time , no need for help from anyone . 

- i'm not papulor , i may seem pretty , but i have the body of a girl who's 20 , i'm too sexy for this high school boys , they're into cute , flatted chest , annoying , and scremy girls . 

- i hate football . 

- i love playstation games , sepcaily the fight one ^^ . 

- i never did go out with a boy or talk with one on the phone . 

- i speak japanese . 

- i hate people pointing at my breast at the streat in front of my friends , and my familly , people who're around . get a life ! 

- i hate old man going for young girl , i mean talking to me that way everytime i come , saying that pervert hello thing , looking to me that look , disguesting , i'll never go there again . 

- i love tall guys , with a nice manely body . 

- i hate guys when they act nice and gentle to u all the time , and then they do one mad look , they destroy they're image . 

- i hate when i think that the people around us might be smiling all the time , but when they go home thier whole image change . 

- i always change my crush , i have crushs on wierde people all the time .

- when girls irrtated me , i want steall they're crush , and now i'm at that mission . 

-  i like the stress of working to beat the time . 

- i like cute stuff . but the thing that fit me is mature stuff . 

- i hate when i send a friend a msg at FB whish is way too long , and then he replay with a word . 

- i hate people who like to attract attention . 

- i hate boys smoking or saying bad words . 

- i love smart guys , they just kill me . 

- i hate guys that the only thing they have in mind is how to get a beautiful girl as they're GF , the only thing on earth that matter ?

well there's still a lot of stuff about me , likes and hates , but i'm gonna leave them for another bad day §

Best friends ditching you for some guy or some girl !

hi ^^

   the thing i hate most , Best friends or just friends ditching you for some guy or some girl , going without saying goodbye , i bet everyone has gone throught this situation .
Well,  it just happens all the time to me , and when i ditch them , suddenly , they come !," why did you igonre us , why ?" , why does they ignore me and ditch me all the time , and when i do it , they get mad , i realise something ( realise it a long time ago ! ) , Friends know you're importance exepet when you're gone , it fits with saying " you're gonna miss me when i'm gone " , i've had really enuagh with this ! , maybe they have a reason , they always have a reason , but i can't keep up with friends who doesn't care about me as i care about them or they only care about me when i'm gone .
     i'm still thinking about what to do ? , i have other friends , and i like them , but leaving the others when they have a reason for it , is just not fair and a cruel thing to do .
  a little advice for people who have this kind of problem : " Running after you're friends , wherever they go , fallowing them everywhere , i'm not saying that this is my case , but it happend to me befor , feeling like you're the thired wheel , just that feeling like you're someone unwanted is awful , and bieng abondent , is just not a really pleasent feeling T.T , i wish i won't try it ever again , what i want to say treasure you're self , not fallowing everyone around , be you're self , and someone for sure is gonna love you , and if they know how amazing you're then they'll regret it , and you'll notice it as soon as you realise what i just said :) " 
   Girls love guys , and they prefer them over friends ( over girls friends ) , i never ditch my friend for a guy because i didn't had the feeling to leave them and cling to some guy so he'll like me or anything , just wierd , but everyone i know do it , not all of them but the most , sometimes i feel like " what the heck ? " , they're just thinking about them , selfish people :( , i'm not gonna say that i won't ever ditch them for some guy cause i never did had that strong feeling to go talk to a guy , and cling to him , so i don't know if i ever will do that .
in the end all i have to say to people who have problems like me don't worry , you'll find someone like you Lol , maybe :)
salam " peace " 

i love him

i love someone , he's cute kind of , not my type ( when i tell someone he's not my type , they say like WHHHHATTT ? , well don't be shoked , he ain't , i'm into tall guy's " he's tall " and guys with the 5 o'clock shadow beard " he doesn't have it " , and into guy's who are into me more then i'm into them , like they do the stalking not ME ,  into guy's who're good at some stuff , not gonna say what that stuff is , it's  personal :p ) Let me finish he's born on 12/01/1996 , he's bigger then me , not much , he love the colour black , and he's a big fan of the metallica band , a rock band ! , he loves fish and fry potatos , and he used to have an ex girlfriend , i don't know what he saw in her , to ask her out , sure she's pretty , not really !!! , kind of , anyone has his own taste , well she's a bit childish , and he seem to be mature , since his the bigger one in the familly , he like to study to reach his goal , " i wish he'll be able to do that , even if we don't end up toghther " , so that ex of his is oviousely still in love with him , she said it herself , there's no one who's like him , well there'sn't , sepcaily in the school , i feel like he's still in love with her too , they don't talk anymore , but it feels like they'll get back toghther , and i prefer him bieng with some girl who's right for him rather then some kid trying to win him back , annoying ! , well whatever , let's stop talking about her  .let's finish what i know about him , i feel like i know everything , what he feels , i stalke him everywhere , i even got to see his room and talked with him in the phone , but that's not enughe , he oviousely not gonna get a girlfriend this year since it's the year of unvirsty exam , so i bet that he's waiting to finish the exam and have a good pass mark , so he can do whatever he want to do , and then ask her out again , or when he got to collage ,he'll chose some incconte cute girl with the most adorbale face and get out with her , and tell her wait for me for like 7 years so i can finish my study , and get married , or he'll get bored with her , and move one girl by girl , living his life , no sense , and when he find a job he'll find some girl who he loves, and wish to be with her forever , just annoying !but just to be positive , he might end up in love with me without me trying that hard , he'll feel that i'm a nice girl , always standing up with his sisters , and he'll see something in me , i wish thought , and he'll think this girl is sepcail , "i feel like lying to my self" , well whatever or me on the other hand i might get to the universty and meet the guy of my dream , he'll be like taller then me , has a nice body , sexy hihi :p , someone who'll be a good match to me , and he'll be smarte , older then me , and so gentle , and can be good at some stuff , and he'll be all over me , so in love with me , he'll be in love with me first , not me , because stalking didn't do me no good , it's just made me more shy and not confident that he'll like me , i see myself as beautiful a fine lady , and the most amazing girl , and all WOwo, but just getting near the guy i like , he like take all my glowing and confidance away , and i become the same girl i don't wanna be , all of the sudden i feel ugly and unwanted , unloved , hated , aweful emotions come at me at once , and they ask me why not go and get the guy , u're pretty , so why not ? , they havn't exprience rejection befor , rejection without even confessing , annoying , niether did they feel this feeling which is so not good , i'll tell u something people are cruel , and they think only about themselves , and for that i ain't gonna make the first move .waiting for the right guy to come , i said i love him not adore him or that i can't give up on him , and like i can't live without him or like i will never find anyone better , everything is in the hand of allah so be positive , and the right guy will come :) peace " salam " 

how to be smart ?

Vacation ends after 3 Days , i'll entre school , new class , some familler faces , some aren't , I have to find a girl who i can sit with , who has to be stupider then me , or at my level , Has to be nice , and cool to hung out , not the boring Type , and in this year i'll have to bear studying with the girl who once left me for 4 years with no a word , and then comeback talking to me one day as if i'm some kind of forgivable person , well i guess i was , because we're talking now , arn't we ? ... , well the reason she left me in the first place was because i was smarter then her , even her familly hated me , because i was smarter then thier daughter , when i said it's okey , they said :" it's not okey , she have to be better " , well guess what ! when the me who at some point lost the ability to study , and let go of her own futur , in the other hand she got better , why ? she improved her self , Yeah she did , i have to tell her " well done " bravo , after all she did it , and now her dear parents can tell me " it's okey " , but if she could do it , then i also can , all i need to do is study hard , and stay late ( cause i heard smart peopler stay late at night studying because they can't sleep knowing there's something missing out there , or something they don't understand , and honestly i don't have this kind of ability to stay late and study very hard so i can be the first , i always give up , well not anymore , cause somehow there's a part of me died that day when the teacher told me " you can't do it " ) , also keep on the hard work , all you have to do is not miss anything , keep with track , make notes and stuff , just reading what i'm writing make me believe in myself much better , and If i can do it , and she could do it , then you can , all you have to do is create a bit of magic , and love yourself , believe in it , and olala you did it . 
Salam "peace" 

Little TalK

Hi everyone 

u see when i was small like around 12 or 13 i begin to watch anime , and with time i become addicted to them , and i was afraid at that time if i grow up and i get married , and have childern , i was afriad i'll stay the same girl who watch anime , but at the age of 15 , i get less in watching anime , and got into manga , and by time here i'm 17 still watching anime and reading manga , but still i'm not into just this two , i also adore watching korean drama , and so as japanias , i now can talk a bit of japanais , and i was proud of the that , untill i got into high school last year , and since it's a new class , it's also a new friends , so i was sitting behind , and so i don't remember exacly what happend , but someone from the front give me something so i said arigatoo , and then this girl who was sitting beside me said something in japanais , i don't remember what's it ! , but well since that we become close friends , more then friends , we become sisters , kind of , hhhheheh , so i really love this friend of mine , she have white skin and she's short , she's like 1.55 , while i'm brunnet , and tall , i'm 1.75 mmm well still i love my hight :) . hight doesn't matter in making friends , well ofcourse u'll have difficltty in talking while standing up , but what the heck ? i don't give a damn ^^ i'm happy with the way i was born , and i thank allah for that :)))))
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letting go !

i'm not going to fallow you , or tell you that i love you in my own way , i'm not going to stand from a far , and  watch you with my eyes whish are dying to see you from up close ; i'm not going to climb there anymore , i'm not going to entre you're classroom , and keep looking around , as if i'm saying" i wish i can be here with you" , i'm not going to wait untill it's 10.00 to see you , and run as fast as i can just to see you're face , and  when i see you i'll hide somewhere , and begin to feel like a stalker , my legs tremble , my body is at lose , and i froget how to walk , all this is not gonna happen anymore , i'm  going to froget you , i'm not gonna ask for you , i'm going to let go , you're free to fallow you're charming girl , she's nice , well to nice , you're nice as well , i guess you too fit toghther perfectlly , when you two were toghther i wished a bad wish , it's not like a wish , it's more like a hope , i said if you two broke up , then it mean you and me were meant to be toghther , and then my wish become true , but i know it was just a false hope , cause you're cool , but somehow silent , and you like dark song , when in the other side i'm more like wowo who live in lala land , well now you're wishing to go somewhere else , and maybe take you're ex with you , getting married , having kids , at that time my secret of loving you will be frogtten , and drowned somewhere ,  i wonder if when i see you again i can be brave and look t you , and feel sorry for myself or feeling ugly thought i'm not , i'm afraid that eyes of you'rs will show a very ugly side of me ,  well now i have frogtten u dear ex-love , i wish next year i'll find someone else , someone charming , and very cute ,  handsome , i don't want to fall in love with someone like you  , not anymore .

heart

When you want something so bad , but that thing can't be you'rs no mare what , it make you feel usless , and unwanted , hurt , invisible , edgy , poor , lonely , frogtten , hated , wrong , pitful , gross , disgusting , Ugly .

revenge or hate , does it help us ?

Well , befor this momment here , i hated someone very much , she hurted someone precious to me , i really hated her , she wasn't the type that regret what she did !, or anything ... , she play it nice , and cool , but in realty she's a really a nasty , like to insult u , but with this kind of thing like not direct , but u understand that it was about u , well i felt really that i need to hate her , she's just have to be hated , i always thought , how can her familly stand her , she's defentally is a bitch . 
    
    But , now that i've met her again , I saw her , and looked again ,and again ,and again , she's getting old , her skin if pale , her face seemed ugly , i pitted her , i felt sorry for her , she's not that one i hate , i thought is this her ? the way she dress , everything , ...my life is better then her , i'm happy , she's aweful , i'm restful , she's restless , as she spoke and all , the urage of hating her begine to slowly dispear , does she deserve me to hate her ? , well guess what , she deserve it , but i don't want to waste my time on filthy people like her , i hate her , and i still , but i don't care about getting a revenge or trying to make her regret it , cause she won't , she'll never forget it , she'll keep her life , and she'll repeat it again , and again , and i'll never care again .


 this familly from the mother to the daughter , they're all enjoy making stories , it's like there's not anything else important , well let them both go and throw them self from a roof , lol , just kidding ,but i really don't care , they're idiot , and the idiot who will care . 

but how can't somebody get hurt from they're words , it's stabbing us in the heart , but yes we recover , yet we want to repay them , sometimes we repay them , sometimes we don't , cause it's better to give them the cold shoulder ,rather then the spilling water , that's what i think sometimes not all the time .

We can't live happily after a stab in the heart , and we wish we would comeback to redo what we said , or to even say something or just do anything but it's a shame that we can't "it's life.
 they're indeed IDIOT , and i'm going to protect that precious person of mine , and that will be next time dear idiot .

LOVE

well , i don't know what i sould do ! , all of the sudden i feel shy , and restless .
it's all his fault cause this feeling is too big for my body to controll , i can't keep it up , my heart just feel happy , my legs get weak , the time feel slow , and in the same time fast , wierd , right ?? T^T
Though , i love this feeling ," LOVE " So good that i feel dizzy all the time , and it make me adore Fish .

If u ask me what i love about him , i'll say Everything , i don't think there's anything wrong with him , and i don't care what other's say about him , because too me he is Perfect , well perfect too me , and please don't see him withthat little eyes of you're , cause he's above that , so please don't ever ask me , why .

i don't like to be judge by the way i look , or how i talk or walk , or who i hang out with , please minna-san mind u're own bissense , cause it's me who want to choose my own friends , i love the way my friends look , cause if u love someone u don't want to change a thing about him :)) , that's LOVE to me . 

in the End , what i want to say is that LOVE is amazing , so search for it , and work hard to get it , not stay deadwall and wait for somebody to come and rescue u , well i'm like that right now , but still doing my best to reach and capture his heart . 


salam "peace" 

kawaii ^^

i love this hairstyle , i do it sometimes ^^ , it's quit beautiful ,
if u think that too , then please leave a comment , and next time i'll put a video to how to do this style , and also others .

my fellings

today i felt happy at the begging , but in the afternoon i felt really sad , because i remembered that tomorrow , we will corect the test , and i didn't work very well , mostly worst , then the first termester , this girl that i sit with her , she talk to much , she's really kind of boring , sometimes good , but what can i say i'm losing my real self around her , i'm so lost , i wish i can save it befor it gone all away , i'm begging to hate her , but the more the thought of hating her come a croos my head, the more i'm losing "me" , what i sould do ??
tuseday , we did math exam , i did a mistake , instead of writtin all the numbers , which is 30 , i wrote 31 , and with this little mistake , a full exersice which has 7 point , is gone , and let's not talk about the others exercise that i got wrong or i didn't do , but this girl who sit with me did everything , i was the SMARTEST one , befor metting her , damn it , this is making me free a little bit , LOL ^^ please no hate for what i'm saying , i don't hate her , i actully think she's trying her best , the blame is all on me , for not taking any atention in the class , niether intoo my life , so i have to do it now for the thire termester the last one , so i can chose science ^^ and bring the old me back

 If by any chance , u r reading this , please give me u're opinion , i really in deep need for it right now , thanks ^^

head high -_-

i'm going to try my best from now and on , and no one is going to tell me i can't do it  i did it last year , and i'm going to do this year ^^ , i'm head high ಸೊ ಗೊಇಂಗ್  ತೋ  ದೋ ಇತ್ 

^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7QIhFm0M3c

i've lost myslef

Ι've lost , and the regret is killing me ,  yes i did , and that really hurt ; and this is not even the first time .it really hurt so much , i've got one last chance to make it up  ,and i hope that i'll do best , and for tomorrow i'll do my hardest . wish me best ^^ 

ς ί h ε m 

it's very moody here in algeria !!

sometimes it's cold , & somtiems so hot, special in this season 

so i gathered this clothes and i wish u'll like it !

YAY! to gambul

SO BOORING !!
 they say you're an adult now , in high scholl girl is big enough ! cut it off 
i love watching gumbul and yes i do love  watching SPONGBOB

and i don't give a damn to nobody <3 

hey everyone !!

last day i was very sick , so i didn't go to school , so much fun , i've wake up untill 11 , while my classmates were studying and feeling hungery , i stood at home watching sukitte na yo , at first i didn't want to because i've stopped watching anime a year ago and change to manga otoku !

but i was feeling so bored so i download it and watch 9 ep , it's defentaly not as the manga , because when u imagine the voice , the action... it's not the same but still watching it !

kurosawa yamato daisuki <3 and this is a picture of him !

kawaii

it's been more then a week since i saw this amazing clothes ..so i'd like to share it with you :p

shoes

well ^^ :

as first for me i want to put photos for adrobel shoes ^^ i wish u like it 

bcz i did lol !! :p

ohayo

 hi ^o^ 

it's the first day for me ..so !! i wish form this day on ..that we'll have fun <3