i love him

i love someone , he's cute kind of , not my type ( when i tell someone he's not my type , they say like WHHHHATTT ? , well don't be shoked , he ain't , i'm into tall guy's " he's tall " and guys with the 5 o'clock shadow beard " he doesn't have it " , and into guy's who are into me more then i'm into them , like they do the stalking not ME ,  into guy's who're good at some stuff , not gonna say what that stuff is , it's  personal :p ) Let me finish he's born on 12/01/1996 , he's bigger then me , not much , he love the colour black , and he's a big fan of the metallica band , a rock band ! , he loves fish and fry potatos , and he used to have an ex girlfriend , i don't know what he saw in her , to ask her out , sure she's pretty , not really !!! , kind of , anyone has his own taste , well she's a bit childish , and he seem to be mature , since his the bigger one in the familly , he like to study to reach his goal , " i wish he'll be able to do that , even if we don't end up toghther " , so that ex of his is oviousely still in love with him , she said it herself , there's no one who's like him , well there'sn't , sepcaily in the school , i feel like he's still in love with her too , they don't talk anymore , but it feels like they'll get back toghther , and i prefer him bieng with some girl who's right for him rather then some kid trying to win him back , annoying ! , well whatever , let's stop talking about her  .let's finish what i know about him , i feel like i know everything , what he feels , i stalke him everywhere , i even got to see his room and talked with him in the phone , but that's not enughe , he oviousely not gonna get a girlfriend this year since it's the year of unvirsty exam , so i bet that he's waiting to finish the exam and have a good pass mark , so he can do whatever he want to do , and then ask her out again , or when he got to collage ,he'll chose some incconte cute girl with the most adorbale face and get out with her , and tell her wait for me for like 7 years so i can finish my study , and get married , or he'll get bored with her , and move one girl by girl , living his life , no sense , and when he find a job he'll find some girl who he loves, and wish to be with her forever , just annoying !but just to be positive , he might end up in love with me without me trying that hard , he'll feel that i'm a nice girl , always standing up with his sisters , and he'll see something in me , i wish thought , and he'll think this girl is sepcail , "i feel like lying to my self" , well whatever or me on the other hand i might get to the universty and meet the guy of my dream , he'll be like taller then me , has a nice body , sexy hihi :p , someone who'll be a good match to me , and he'll be smarte , older then me , and so gentle , and can be good at some stuff , and he'll be all over me , so in love with me , he'll be in love with me first , not me , because stalking didn't do me no good , it's just made me more shy and not confident that he'll like me , i see myself as beautiful a fine lady , and the most amazing girl , and all WOwo, but just getting near the guy i like , he like take all my glowing and confidance away , and i become the same girl i don't wanna be , all of the sudden i feel ugly and unwanted , unloved , hated , aweful emotions come at me at once , and they ask me why not go and get the guy , u're pretty , so why not ? , they havn't exprience rejection befor , rejection without even confessing , annoying , niether did they feel this feeling which is so not good , i'll tell u something people are cruel , and they think only about themselves , and for that i ain't gonna make the first move .waiting for the right guy to come , i said i love him not adore him or that i can't give up on him , and like i can't live without him or like i will never find anyone better , everything is in the hand of allah so be positive , and the right guy will come :) peace " salam "