Love !

my cousine is gonna get married , she's gonna make her dream finally come true , i bet she's so happy she barely can sleep , afraid she'll end up just awake from her dream , a year ago she wasn't even dreaming that she could make someone knock thier damn door asking for her hand , and now here she's about to get married , the botton which pushed her to end up like this , was one and only reason , my sister getting engaged , and what a reason , from a familly like heres , full of jeallosy of us , so after god know how many months , she got engaged as well , feeling so proud to be in that place , everyone  said she's so stupid , people get proud over having a job , having to finish thier studies , doing something amazing for them selves,  and her over getting a man , i think she have the right to be happy and proud , because it's such a good feeling to be wanted from another person , who loves you , wanna be with you forever , when people says that she's so stupid and rather naive , deep in me , i'll be saying if you only know what i also want , so i think she should surly be happy and proud , but it also depends on how she got this man , got it based on the reason said before , or out of love , because if it isn't of love and acceptance , i'll tell you , what a naive girl indeed , to chose someone based on others , based on her getting older ....
Yes , i know how lonely it must be , staying with no love and  all that shit , i'm in a young age , yet i'm obessed with that kind of feeling , there's nothing i hope and wish for much for then bieng wanted from a man , what a feeling , everyone making me feel really jealouse , i want to experience it soon ...